Someone commented to me the other day, "You don't look as pregnant today as you did a few days ago."
My response, which made her laugh, "I definitely feel just as pregnant." ;)
I will say that I have noticed that in some shirts I show more than others, such as the picture below.
At first this shirt looks like it camouflages well...
But then the truth shines through...
These were taken at the baby shower at FBC Sunday, btw. The first picture was taken last Saturday at a family get together for Josh's dad's mom's side of the family. So glad that it is baby and not just a spare tire. Haha.
I'm getting along well at 33 weeks. Benjamin figured out about 1 1/2 - 2 months ago how to get up near my diaphragm and make me short of breath. He likes to do that on Sundays when I'm trying to sing at church. lol.
I was quite blessed to get good results from my 3 hour glucose test that I had to go back and have (after my numbers were too high from the previous 1 hour test). Praise the Lord that it is still a healthy pregnancy...and I didn't have to completely give up sugar. :)
I've developed some insomnia over the past week or so. I'm very glad to be done with school for now. I think the sleep troubles are a mix of my pregnancy induced carpal tunnel (which flares the worst when I lay down), nesting urges to get the nursery ready, growing discomfort, and anxiety at the realization that, oh yes, I am going to have deliver this child, and as wonderful as the payoff will be, I still have to experience lots of pain and hospitalization.
Two spiritual things I have taken out of my late night
panic attacks musings regarding labor and delivery.
1) Pain in child birth came out of the consequences of sin. I, like all other human beings, am sinful in nature. The pain associated with bringing life into the world is only a fraction of what I deserve for the sins that I have committed. Thank you Lord that I am forgiven.
2) As much as I have my moments of worry about giving birth, I am going to be so glad to have my baby boy in my arms, and I'm sure I'd do it again in a heartbeat. Jesus suffered far more than I can even imagine when he sacrificed his life on the cross. He knew what was in store for him; he had even began to sweat blood as he prayed before his crucifixion...because he knew of the suffering he would incur. And he still did it. He did it for us, and all we have to do is accept the free gift of salvation. Knowing how much love it has taken for me (and Josh) to consciously embark on this road to parenthood, how astounding is the love that our Lord has shown us! God sent His son Jesus to die for our sins, and Christ knowingly made that sacrifice for us. Our God is awesome.
Overall, all is well here. I'm slowly collecting what we need for Benjamin, and I'm going to try to pack up our hospital bags next week just to have them ready and waiting for when the time comes. I did the first load of baby laundry today, and I tried not to have my spirits dampened when I thought of the many years to come of Benjamin's laundry. lol. I even went and pre-registered at the hospital yesterday, and I was able to take a tour of labor & delivery, nursery, & women's center. I tried not to look too shell shocked as I stared at the hospital bed trying not to visualize what would be occurring there in less than 2 months. I'll refer back to a quote we heard many a time during the MAT program at Lee, and it is applicable even now.
"Begin with the end in mind." -- Stephen Covey
And what a wonderful end there is to that labor...A brand new baby. Again I say, Our God is awesome. I'm so looking forward to meeting Benjamin. :)